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Mar 16, 2021Liked by Katie Hawkins-Gaar

Thank you so so much for bravely sharing your experience.

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Mar 16, 2021Liked by Katie Hawkins-Gaar

Your experience is a gift to so many. Thank you for sharing! I've never heard of postpartum psychosis and certainly have never had the opportunity to learn from someone's first-hand experience with it. I'm sorry you had to go through that. I'm so glad things are in a much better place now! Sending love to you long distance, from the FL Panhandle <3

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Oct 14Liked by Katie Hawkins-Gaar

I’ve just found your newsletter! Yay. Thank you for sharing what sounds like a harrowing journey. So glad you came through it and can now bring hope to others. Did the stay in the hospital help? It sounds very traumatic and not supportive?

Becoming a mother is a core-shaking initiation. From the moment I gave birth my insides were suddenly on the outside, where they’ve remained ever since!

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Thank you, Vicki. The hospital stay helped for stabilizing me and for getting me the medication I needed. Overall, though, it could have been such more supportive and helpful. It was an eye-opening experience. And I couldn’t agree more about motherhood!

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Oct 6, 2022Liked by Katie Hawkins-Gaar

This is a really powerful piece. My son turned one yesterday, and while I didn't experience postpartum psychosis, I did experience a whole swathe of emotional and mental states that were entirely alien to me. Those first few weeks are a terrifying time, and that's not something anybody talks enough about. Thank you.

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Thank you, Rosemary! It really is such a bizarrely secretive and lonely experience; I wish it weren't. And congrats on making it through the first year! I think the first birthday is as much a milestone for the parents as it is the child. xo

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Jul 6, 2021Liked by Katie Hawkins-Gaar

Reading of this strong recovery is deeply moving, even though it's just about impossible that I might ever experience anything like it. After all, I'm a Yipster (estrogen-impaired person respelled). I've had my share of impairments and largely recovered, so I can remotely appreciate the strength of your love.

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Thank you for your bravery in sharing your experience Katie. I opened up about my battles with paternal post-natal depression after the birth of my son—a problem that not only isn't talked about amongst new fathers, but some believe doesn't even exist.

https://www.thenewfatherhood.org/p/when-fatherhood-doesnt-go-to-plan

I've had many people—men suffering in silence and partners who are worried—reach out and tell me how much it has helped. I am certain that your openness and vulnerability here will do the same for others.

(I'm not in the habit of sharing links to my writing in people's comments, but doing so here in case new parents come across your post and it might help. Let me know if you'd rather not have it here and I'll take it away.)

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Kevin, thank you for sharing this! It’s beautifully told and I’m so proud of you for speaking out. I also love that West Wing scene! Thank you for reminding me about it.

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Mar 18, 2021Liked by Katie Hawkins-Gaar

Katie, you have always taken the courageous path. You have opened your heart and allowed yourself to be vulnerable to friends, family, coworkers and strangers, writing openly and honestly about your experiences and losses. I am not surprised that you would once again, challenge your comfort level and share your experiences of late. You are helping women who have experienced Postpartum psychosis feel understood, less alone and educating those who don’t know enough about it. You are brave beyond words, if anything, I 'edge closer' to you, as your honesty is a breath of fresh air. You are a true definition of a Warrior Woman and I respect you immensely.♥️

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Mar 17, 2021Liked by Katie Hawkins-Gaar

Thank you for sharing this. Mental health, specifically experiences revolving around bipolar and psychosis, are so inaccessible to so many who have never gone through them. Coming from someone who has a mother who has suffered from both of those things, I commend you for the strength and grace it takes to talk about living through them. You are strong.

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